Returning to Myself
Lately, I’ve been in a quiet phase of reinvention. This transformation doesn’t seek attention; instead, it calls for presence. My “return to myself” isn’t about reliving the past, but finding inspiration. In revisiting earlier versions of myself, I’ve noticed the fearlessness, audacity, and creative spark that once burned brightly. By intentionally reclaiming that energy, there is power in remembering who I’ve been. Though I’m not trying to replicate my old self, but drawing from her strength and spirit reminds me that I have done bold things before and can do them again.
In this process, I’ve realized how much I’ve had to let go of. Mostly fear and self-doubt, but I’ve also been unlearning perfectionism. I used to hold my work back, waiting until it felt flawless. Now, I am learning to relinquish my expectations, even though it makes me feel vulnerable and honest. My focus is on the process and the journey rather than the end result; easing my grip on specific outcomes and releasing the need to control how things turn out. Instead, I am allowing myself to embrace surprises, and that simple shift has opened me up in unexpected ways.
This season has felt like all the things; liberating, exciting, and uncertain. But more than anything, it’s been freeing. I don’t have the most significant platform, and for a long time, I thought that meant my work didn’t matter. I now see the value in working on a smaller platform. It allows me to experiment, time to develop my skills, and the freedom to make mistakes. At this moment, I am more confident in my work than I have been in a long time. Not because people are viewing it, but because I appreciate it myself. I’ve been falling in love with the work and not just the outcome. The most significant shift is learning to find satisfaction in the process so that when I share something, I’m already proud. My mood is no longer tethered to external validation, and that’s a kind of peace I didn’t know I needed.
I’ve realized reinvention doesn’t always mean becoming someone new. If you’ve been feeling the pull to shift, soften, and reconnect with a version of yourself you’ve tucked away, this is your reminder that you’re not alone. Reinvention can be a quiet return, a remembering, and a deep breath before you step forward again. Give yourself the space to grow without needing to explain how. Let it be yours.
Photo by: Dex Jones